Here is your horoscope
for Tuesday, June 3:
You need to be pretty ruthless and logical in order to handle the stresses of the day -- but that should come easily to you for now. If anyone gets hurt, it won't last long and will be easily forgiven.
ps: I don't like the last part :(
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
It's gonna be a long long week ahead
After today, it's going to be another long...long...long and a very hard...hard work week ahead.
Haizzzz...**
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Hopefully...
Suasana kerja minggu lepas teramat ler tersibuk sangat. Kena pulak aku baru baik demam tu hari.
Batuk, sakit tekak...kira badan aku kurang selasa ler time tuu. Ditambah pula dgn cuaca yg tidak menentu...kejap bahang panas, lepas tu hujan...
Ramai jugak yg sakit aku dgr. The flu virus spreading. So, aku nasihat kan korang jaga ler kesihatan tu. Kalo dah sakit, nak buat kejer pon susah.
Banyak jugak kejer aku postpone. Sumer aku tolak tepi. Kepala berdenyut jek. Nak focus pon susah.
Aku rasa next week kena double-up sikit. Baru jek buat a few appointments. Hopefully, I'll be better next week. It's going to be a long-long week for me, for us.
Sebelum sakit last Friday tu, aku sempat gie tengok wayang citer Indiana Jones. Alamak, sungguh mengecewakan! Citer dia too futuristic lerr. Aku tak soka. Aku lebih suka citer-citer lama Indiana Jones. Lebih exciting giler dari citer yg baru. Lagipon, story plot dia mengarut dan terlampau simple. Kekadang tu ader exaggerate sikit. Nampak sah, Harrison Ford tu dah tua. Aku rasa sepatutnya lah dia pencen jadi Indiana Jones. And hopefully, tamatkan ajer lah citer Indiana Jones tuu...
*uhuk*uhuk* - Adusss..masih sakit lagi nih. Nak blog pon takde mood. :(
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
La La La Kerjalah
Celik mata, kerja. Tutup mata, mimpi kerja. Yg penting kiter kerjalah, tak mencuri.Hari nie pon kejer aku tersangat ler sibuk. Dari awal minggu nie, kerja tak habis-habis. Tapi aku suka ler kerja...kalo tak kejer nanti aku jatuh sakit. Pelik kan?
Sebenarnya aku memang mcm tu. Kalo sakit aku masih teruskan kejer. Kalo tak nanti makin sakit derr. Orang kater aku nie workaholic. Tapi sebenarnya bukan.
Bagiku kerja tu adalah sebahagian dari hidupku. Kerja tu adalah amanah. Kerjer tu adalah suatu kewajipan. Setiap kerjer harus dilakukan dgn seikhlasnya.
"Keihklasan itu akan membuka suatu jalan yang tersembunyi. Ianya tidak dapat dikecapi jika keikhlasan itu mengharapkan suatu pembalasan."
So, yg penting kiter kejer harus happy. Walopon mcm mana teruk dan jijiknya kejer kiter, kita harus bersyukur yg kiter mampu brdikari dan mempunyai pekerjaan.
Besok sambung kejer lagi. Bila aku nak berhenti dari buat kejer ek? Aku rasa tidak. Selagi sihat tubuh ku ini, selagi diizinkan umurku ini, aku akan terus bekerja.
Kerja...kerja...kerjalah...Lalalalala!
Meet Uncle Hussain - La La La Kerjalah
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Another self-destructive episode
"We did not f*** your mother, but why must you offend us until like dat??!" :(
Another self-destructive episode.
ps : Did our education system cultivate him to be this way?
Another self-destructive episode.
ps : Did our education system cultivate him to be this way?
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
MAD week!
This week is madness!!
GOSH! I never thought I'm going thru madness again...not so soon. Since Monday, life has been so miserable. Datelines, meetings, workloads all come at once. What my horoscope has written was true so far. So, here it begins a whole new cycle of my distorted life.
2 Sentosa Coves projects to oversee, 1 Jalan Adat, 1 Bridport, 4 Fort Canning, 1 Pulau Ubin, 1 Ulu Pandan...and the list just goes on and on and on and on and on....And I only got like about 2 weeks to clear them???
URA meeting this Thursday, and that will take half of my day. A trip back to client's office for briefing, and that another half day gone. So left with Friday. And that will be the only day for me to reschedule all coming appointments for the coming week....AAArRRGGGggHHHH...
Entering studio again mid-march and not sure if I will still survive? The month of March appointments are almost full. Ok Zue, it's all abt time management....stop complaining and focus to deliver will ya. SIGH!
hmmm...someone text me "Good evening, Where hv u been?" - Yoohooo...still here. Only glued to my desk. :P
So less time to Facebook, less time to do online chatting and the most @#$$%^ is to have lesser time to sleep. There goes my beauty sleep for the couple of weeks to come. :(
I don't feel well, already.
GOSH! I never thought I'm going thru madness again...not so soon. Since Monday, life has been so miserable. Datelines, meetings, workloads all come at once. What my horoscope has written was true so far. So, here it begins a whole new cycle of my distorted life.
2 Sentosa Coves projects to oversee, 1 Jalan Adat, 1 Bridport, 4 Fort Canning, 1 Pulau Ubin, 1 Ulu Pandan...and the list just goes on and on and on and on and on....And I only got like about 2 weeks to clear them???
URA meeting this Thursday, and that will take half of my day. A trip back to client's office for briefing, and that another half day gone. So left with Friday. And that will be the only day for me to reschedule all coming appointments for the coming week....AAArRRGGGggHHHH...
Entering studio again mid-march and not sure if I will still survive? The month of March appointments are almost full. Ok Zue, it's all abt time management....stop complaining and focus to deliver will ya. SIGH!
hmmm...someone text me "Good evening, Where hv u been?" - Yoohooo...still here. Only glued to my desk. :P
So less time to Facebook, less time to do online chatting and the most @#$$%^ is to have lesser time to sleep. There goes my beauty sleep for the couple of weeks to come. :(
I don't feel well, already.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Lu rock kapak??
The typical mat rock styles & fashions...So cool! Somehow, the last few days brought me back memories of my adolescent years where I grew up as a Mat Rocker.
Being a teenager in the late 80's to the early 90's, the influence of rock genre has really made dramatic impact to my life. The music i listened to, the styles i wore, made every part of me a Mat Rock!
here let me share a post done by someone who has painstakingly define the meanings of words/slangs used by typical mat rocks.
Truely hilarious but with good points of reference. If they have dictionary for Ah Bengs, we have these to feed your thoughts!
Being a teenager in the late 80's to the early 90's, the influence of rock genre has really made dramatic impact to my life. The music i listened to, the styles i wore, made every part of me a Mat Rock!
here let me share a post done by someone who has painstakingly define the meanings of words/slangs used by typical mat rocks.
Truely hilarious but with good points of reference. If they have dictionary for Ah Bengs, we have these to feed your thoughts!
Read thru, and you may find something really familiar...
The Contemporary Mat Dictionary
Posted by nuru on Jan 31, '08 2:30 PM for everyone
Gua [goo-wah] noun – What some mats and minahs use to call themselves. Similar in using “lu” when referring to others. A legacy that dates back to the times of Mat Rocks back in the early 80s.
A common trick that can be played on Mats is to ask them to translate the English phrase “Monkey Cave” into Malay. The mat will then say “Gua Monyet” (I'm a monkey).
Mat [mat] noun – To the rest of the world, the word simply means a Malay guy. But within the Malay community itself there is a growing disparity in consensus to its actual meaning. Popularly, it's used to denote a guy who converses primarily in Malay, as opposed to the more “English speaking” types. Favourites of the mats include tapered jeans, trucker caps and weepy Malay songs with sickeningly suicidal lyrics.
Matrep [mat-rape] noun – An extreme version of the mat. In addition to the usual mat accessories, a matrep will also come adorned with tattoos and matching body-piercings in weird corners of his body.
Minah [mee-nah] noun – An expression used to denote a Malay female. Derived from the popular Malay name, Aminah, which used to be all the rage some time ago. It was sort of the “in-thing” to name your daughter Aminah back in the 60s and 70s. In fact, legend has it that if you go to Geylang Serai market and shout “Hai Minah!” at least a quarter of the makcik population there is going to turn around and smile at you.
Picit [pee-chet] adjective – When a mat tells you to “picit” him, it does not mean that he is trying to be cheeky (or gay, if he is talking to a fellow mat). It simply means that the mat wants you to call him on his mobile. What were you thinking?
Relaksuah [ree-lek-soo-wah] adjective – Official slogan and life motto of the mats and minahs.
Sial [see- yal ] noun / adjective – A full stop in every mat's sentence. Eg: “Tadi aku nampak accident sial Rabak sial Aku tak bedek sial Kesian sial” Translation: Just now I saw an accident (full stop) It was bad (full stop) I'm not kidding (full stop) Poor guy (full stop)
In its purest form, “sial” means “jinx” but mats have refined the art of using the word to include it at the end of their every sentence. Also comes in the more polite form “siak” and “siul” for those who do not want to sound too crude.
Skank [s-kank] adjective - A favourite weird-looking dance performed by mats and minahs. Usually done at any of the various gigs that mats and minahs love to congregate at. At times, you do detect evidence of artistry in the dance but most of the time they just look like they've been possessed by the ghost of a restless retard.
Sowie [soh-wee] adjective – An expression of apology used by minahs. Commonly used in SMS and instant messaging. Actually they can just use the word “sorry” like every normal human being but minahs think that it will make them sound extra cute to deliberately talk that way. Example : “I will be late. Sowie!”
Step [se-tep] adjective – To beguile, dissimulate or impersonate something or someone that they are not. Also commonly used to describe a fellow mat or minah who acts in an arrogant manner. E.g.“Kau jangan nak step tak tahu eh?” Translation: Don't you dare feign innocence in this matter. Can also be used as a gerund e.g. “stepping”. See next entry.
Step Jambu [se-tep jam-boo] adjective - What minahs do when they are sitting alone in a train and a group of mats walk in. It is a general exercise where the minah “controls” her facial muscles and posture in a way that would make her look her best. This would usually involve looking incessantly at her handphone for no particular reason.
Stoppit [setop-eet] adjective – A general expression of intolerance and dismay. When a minah uses this phrase, be very careful for it signals that she is about to lose her cool or get very violent.
Usually directed by minahs in an annoyed manner, followed by the postfix “seh”, “siak” or “sial”. (See entry for “sial” above) Eg: Apasal ngan perangai kau hari ni? Stopitsiak! Transalation : What's up with your attitude today? Enough of it already for goodness' sake!”
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The Contemporary Mat Dictionary
Posted by nuru on Jan 31, '08 2:30 PM for everyone
Gua [goo-wah] noun – What some mats and minahs use to call themselves. Similar in using “lu” when referring to others. A legacy that dates back to the times of Mat Rocks back in the early 80s.
A common trick that can be played on Mats is to ask them to translate the English phrase “Monkey Cave” into Malay. The mat will then say “Gua Monyet” (I'm a monkey).
Mat [mat] noun – To the rest of the world, the word simply means a Malay guy. But within the Malay community itself there is a growing disparity in consensus to its actual meaning. Popularly, it's used to denote a guy who converses primarily in Malay, as opposed to the more “English speaking” types. Favourites of the mats include tapered jeans, trucker caps and weepy Malay songs with sickeningly suicidal lyrics.
Matrep [mat-rape] noun – An extreme version of the mat. In addition to the usual mat accessories, a matrep will also come adorned with tattoos and matching body-piercings in weird corners of his body.
Minah [mee-nah] noun – An expression used to denote a Malay female. Derived from the popular Malay name, Aminah, which used to be all the rage some time ago. It was sort of the “in-thing” to name your daughter Aminah back in the 60s and 70s. In fact, legend has it that if you go to Geylang Serai market and shout “Hai Minah!” at least a quarter of the makcik population there is going to turn around and smile at you.
Picit [pee-chet] adjective – When a mat tells you to “picit” him, it does not mean that he is trying to be cheeky (or gay, if he is talking to a fellow mat). It simply means that the mat wants you to call him on his mobile. What were you thinking?
Relaksuah [ree-lek-soo-wah] adjective – Official slogan and life motto of the mats and minahs.
Sial [see- yal ] noun / adjective – A full stop in every mat's sentence. Eg: “Tadi aku nampak accident sial Rabak sial Aku tak bedek sial Kesian sial” Translation: Just now I saw an accident (full stop) It was bad (full stop) I'm not kidding (full stop) Poor guy (full stop)
In its purest form, “sial” means “jinx” but mats have refined the art of using the word to include it at the end of their every sentence. Also comes in the more polite form “siak” and “siul” for those who do not want to sound too crude.
Skank [s-kank] adjective - A favourite weird-looking dance performed by mats and minahs. Usually done at any of the various gigs that mats and minahs love to congregate at. At times, you do detect evidence of artistry in the dance but most of the time they just look like they've been possessed by the ghost of a restless retard.
Sowie [soh-wee] adjective – An expression of apology used by minahs. Commonly used in SMS and instant messaging. Actually they can just use the word “sorry” like every normal human being but minahs think that it will make them sound extra cute to deliberately talk that way. Example : “I will be late. Sowie!”
Step [se-tep] adjective – To beguile, dissimulate or impersonate something or someone that they are not. Also commonly used to describe a fellow mat or minah who acts in an arrogant manner. E.g.“Kau jangan nak step tak tahu eh?” Translation: Don't you dare feign innocence in this matter. Can also be used as a gerund e.g. “stepping”. See next entry.
Step Jambu [se-tep jam-boo] adjective - What minahs do when they are sitting alone in a train and a group of mats walk in. It is a general exercise where the minah “controls” her facial muscles and posture in a way that would make her look her best. This would usually involve looking incessantly at her handphone for no particular reason.
Stoppit [setop-eet] adjective – A general expression of intolerance and dismay. When a minah uses this phrase, be very careful for it signals that she is about to lose her cool or get very violent.
Usually directed by minahs in an annoyed manner, followed by the postfix “seh”, “siak” or “sial”. (See entry for “sial” above) Eg: Apasal ngan perangai kau hari ni? Stopitsiak! Transalation : What's up with your attitude today? Enough of it already for goodness' sake!”
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The exclusive pix of Papa Rock Mafi & Me
The above pix was taken when I was only 16 years of innocent age. I was then working part-time in a factory while waiting for my O-level results after Sec 4.
During the mat rock era, tight jeans and hi-cut shoes were the most sought after fashion...and SUPER bikes were next! Now, I then realised how UgLY and RiDICULOUS I was...haha!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Thank you for making me feel special..but i don't think I am.
"Ur special.seri0usly."
The text message appeared...and I'm dumbfounded.
Amazingly, I didn't expect that compliment at all. I don't fit the bill, seriously. Am I that special? Why am I so special?
I have to admit that, this is not the first time happening. I am completely puzzled over things that had turned out. I was hoping for a blissful and sincere friend relationship with women I got to know, but sometimes circumstances changed the whole scenario.
Have I been too nice, too sweet, too accommodating that I had advertently giving everyone a wrong impression? If that's the case, then ladies, I am deeply sorry to have caused the stir. I don't want to be accused of giving false hope.
I do not want to hurt you, nor do I want to hurt the friendship. But, we have to set our emotional boundaries straight.
Why it always landed like this with the opposite gender I met?
I don't mean any harm, but yet, why must they harm themselves?
Human emotions are very complicated, I concur. It double the takes when you are not only dealing with your own emotion, but also others.
ps: I shall forget the things you've said just now and I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings. Whatever it is, I am still here to be your friend.
The text message appeared...and I'm dumbfounded.
Amazingly, I didn't expect that compliment at all. I don't fit the bill, seriously. Am I that special? Why am I so special?
I have to admit that, this is not the first time happening. I am completely puzzled over things that had turned out. I was hoping for a blissful and sincere friend relationship with women I got to know, but sometimes circumstances changed the whole scenario.
Have I been too nice, too sweet, too accommodating that I had advertently giving everyone a wrong impression? If that's the case, then ladies, I am deeply sorry to have caused the stir. I don't want to be accused of giving false hope.
I do not want to hurt you, nor do I want to hurt the friendship. But, we have to set our emotional boundaries straight.
Why it always landed like this with the opposite gender I met?
I don't mean any harm, but yet, why must they harm themselves?
Human emotions are very complicated, I concur. It double the takes when you are not only dealing with your own emotion, but also others.
ps: I shall forget the things you've said just now and I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings. Whatever it is, I am still here to be your friend.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
U update ur blog tonyte, la
Ader ler seseorang nie request suroh aku update aku nyer blog.
The reason why aku suka surf blog orang, pasal aku takde idea aper nak update. My life is typically borengz lahh..Day in, day out sama jek.
(*thinking* aper seyy nak diblogkan..??) Apa aku buat hari nie ek?..
The reason why aku suka surf blog orang, pasal aku takde idea aper nak update. My life is typically borengz lahh..Day in, day out sama jek.
(*thinking* aper seyy nak diblogkan..??) Apa aku buat hari nie ek?..
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9.30am : Celik mata. Golek2 atas katil. Dari ujung ke ujung (Nasib baik tak jatuh katil)
10.00am : Masok bilik air. Tengok cermin. Senyum sorang2 (Buat facial excercise lah)
10.15am : Gosok gigi and mandi...
10.30am : Pakai baju...pakai lipstick..(hehehe..acah jer tuu)
10.45am : Buat milo. Baca sotkabar..
11.00am : Kluar gie kejer..
11.45am : sampai ofis. check email. Reply email. Check werk schedule. Check fax. Check voice message...then check aper yg patut lerr...
12.15pm : Wak SMS ajak lunch. Ader project baru nak discuss.
12.30pm : Kat fork n spoon. Adzam pon ader join. Beli nasi + sweet sour ($3.50) & Ice Lemon tea ($1.50).
12.50pm : Wak tunjuk proposal pasal project kat Pulau Sakara. Aku kasi preliminary quotation base on work scope.
1.15pm : Wak agreed on quotation. Aku suruh revised on fees breakdown and get back to me besok.
1.30pm : Abes lunch and balik opis. Jumpa Steve (kawan lama) kat bawah. Bebual jap pasal lama tak jumpa. Kebetulan Wak & Adzam pon kenal dia jugak.
1.45pm : Sampai opis. Buat Stamford Green project. Send email to client pasal Jln Keli & Bridport projects dah dapat reply from authorities. Client reply happy jek. Aku pon happy ler pasal bole mintak claim.
2.30pm : Dukun ajak minom kat bawah. Aku kata jap lagi. Tgh rush drawings nie.
3.00pm : Aku turun post bill invoice to client. Lepas tu SMS dukun gie minom.
3.10pm : Order Teh & teh-0.
3.15pm : Dukun sampai. Start gossip..
3.50pm : Gossip abis. Dukun balik umah, aku pon balik opis.
4.00pm : On the way jalan terserempak Idris. Dia ajak gie Hans rilex minom kopi. Dia bawak buku nak revise for exam mlm kang.
4.15pm : Kat Hans minom lagi. (Brpa banyak kali ler minom..??) Nampak tali hitam kat leher idris. Aku tanyer tu tangkal halao jin kaper? Dia tunjuk tuu 'dog-tag' dia rupanyer.
4.20pm: Aku tanyer buat aper bawak dog-tag? Dia kata pasal hari nie ader exam paper. Dia hilang IC. So, for verification purpose dia pakai dog-tag as alternative. Aku kater kao giler! Bawak passport ler. Dia kata passport pon hilang. Aku give-up ngan dek nie.
5.00pm : Idris pon blah...aku pon naik balik opis.
5.15pm : Aku surf web. Check email lagik.
5.30pm : Faridah datang. Dia bilang printer dia dah jual. Brapa aku tanyer? Dia bilang $180.00 Ok ler tuu..Ader untung jugak lah daripada dia tak pakai. Faridah kata, lepas abis course dia nak tukar kejer. Bagus ler tu. Expand dia nyer career.
5.45pm : Hwee Liang from SLA tepon. Explained kan dia abt Stamford Green project. Dia kata no issue. Nparks should be aware to take over mantainance. Aku yes kan jer. Lepas tuu fwd email kat Nparks. Gie ler korang settle sendiri. Nie hal aku tak masok campor.
6.00pm : download clearance.
6.15pm : SMS Alice abt appointment next week.
6.20pm : Dia reply ok. Tak sabar nak jumpa aku...dah rindu ler nie.
6.30pm : Aku switch off PC and balik.
7.30pm : Singgah kedai kopi. Beli rojak cina $2 + cili
7.50pm : Sampai umah. Bukak baju. Makan rojak sikit.
8.00pm : Tgk Berita kat Suria...sambil makan nasi.
8.30pm : Tgk Berita kat TV3.
9.00pm : Aku masok bilik air and mandi.
9.30pm : Dok depan TV. Tgk citer Rahsia Perkahwinan...Gerek citer nie. Better than last season.
10.30pm : Rahsia Perkahwinan abes. Tgk channel 5 lak. Tgk Live the Dream...mengarotzz! Hate the show. They aren't capable at all, and I meant the judges..yucks!
10.45pm : Baca sotkabar lagik..
11.oopm : Check hp. Ader SMS....Reply SMS.
11.15pm : On PC. Masok MSN...
11.20pm : Rahman, Wak, Nisha online..Chat ngan dia orang kejap.
11.30pm : Remind Wak to revised project quotation for Pulau Sakara.
12.00am : Nisha dah offline...Left aku, Wak and Rahman jek
12.20am : Teringat si Ideris. Apa jadi ngan Business Law paper dia tadi...SMS dia tapi tak reply. Dah tidor agak nyer.
12.30am : SMS Sya kat Putrajaya. Ucapkan dia Happy 21st Birthday. Dia reply balik happy jek. Dia tunggu birthday present dia. Dia nak SpongeBob aku...huhu..mana boleh.? Tuu I nyer buat tidor...
12.40am : Wak still online..dia tgh tgk TV. Aku tgh download documents from opis tadi.
12.50am : Nisha dah SMS senyap jek. Dah tido agak nyer. Surf web. Baca blog orang...On Skype
1.15am : Kay masok Skype.
1.30am : Baca news online. Singapore shares plunged. Oh ya...Check diary for tomorrow's appointment. Besok ader meeting ngan Lindsay from Prudential. Nak check aper dah jadi ngan investment aku. Kalo untung 4%-5% jek, aku rasa mcm nak terminate jek. Invest kat Philips Securities lagi bagus lah.
1.50am : Start aku nyer blog. Ntah aper citer nie, aku whack jer lahh..
2.00am : Wak tanyer apasal aku tak tido..Dia nak tgk bola England lwn German nanti. Aku tak takde masa lah. Nak abis kan blog nie.
2.30am : Tu ajer lah citer aku satu hari nie. Boring kan? Ok..aku nak tido. Goodnite everybody.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Kenangan Silam
Nie ler badge skola rendah aku dulu. Cuba teka skola mana nie..?
Banyak kenangan manis yg masih kekal dlm ingatanku. Dulu, cikgu2 kata aku pandai....Pandai nyanyi jek..huhahuauahaha
ps : Thks Daing...I shall neber forget our childhood memories. Also, Al-Fateha to S/Sgt Noranzor Abd Latiff (Omanzo the 'Chicago Boy') - My Buddy.
Macam siak!!!
Dah takde soklan lain ke nak tanyer..???
Quote :
"Setahu saya, benda paling besar pernah dimasukkan dalam faraj di negara ini ialah bola ragbi."
Jawapan pon macam siak!..huahahaha...
ps: nyways, hari ini aku mempelajari suatu yang baru kegunaan bola ragbi...heh! *hancuss*
Quote :
"Setahu saya, benda paling besar pernah dimasukkan dalam faraj di negara ini ialah bola ragbi."
Jawapan pon macam siak!..huahahaha...
ps: nyways, hari ini aku mempelajari suatu yang baru kegunaan bola ragbi...heh! *hancuss*
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
If tomorrow never comes
I experienced the most harrowing moment in my life.
I felt a sudden pain on my chest. My lungs felt like collapsing and I have difficulty breathing. My hands felt cold afterwards and I began to tremble and shiver. Oh, what's happening to me? Am I gonna die? Will this be my last moment?...
I laid my head down and closed my eyes. The pain was excruciating. Like a knife piercing thru my heart, every breath I gasped was gruelling. Breathing was so exhausting at that point of time. Arrgghh...I have to fight it! I began to experience blurred visions. I couldn't see with my left eye. My left side of brain felt strainous. High cholesterol ke??
As I keep my eyes closed, lots of things running thru my head. What if tomorrow never comes? Am I prepared to leave. What were my deeds? Have I done enough? Oh God, spare my life for this moment. There's too much I've not done...too much and too little time.
15min later, talipon ku berdering.
"Assalamualaikum? Aper khabar?" Shaf was at the other end. "Wa'alaikumsalam, kurang sihat bro. Dada aku tetiba sakit nie. Mcm nak mati pon ader.." aku jawab.
"Tu ler..isap rokok banyak sangat." Shaf perli aku. "Kira dah cut down ler nie." aku menidakkan nyer. Tapi mungkin ler. Aku rasa sudah tiba masanya utk aku berhenti tabiat tu. But kekadang susah ler. Kerja ku terlampau stress.
"Malam jumaat nie on tak? Dah berminggu kau tak datang.." Shaf menanyakan tentang kelas fardhu 'ain yg kami kerap hadir pada tiap minggu.
Diam tak diam, dah sebulan lebih aku tak datang. Tapi waktu kerja ku begitu padat sebulan dua nie. Ishh...dah banyak jugak pelajaran aku tertinggal nie. Terasa mcm bersalah lak. Seharusnya aku sambung kelas fardhu 'ain tu. Tak ada faedahnya kalo asyik mencari dunia, sedang kan akhirat aku lalai kan. Karang nyawaku dicabut tetiba...menyesal tak sudah. Tadi nyaris tuu..tu baru gazzette jek tuu..
"Ermm..ok ler. Kalo aku sihat nie, aku kol kao. Kiter gie sama2, ok." aku memberi jaminan pada Shaf yg aku tak nak ponteng lagi.
Mungkin pengalaman hari nie menyedarkan aku betapa rapuh nyawa kita. Tuhan masih sayangkan aku. Aku masih sempat diberi peringatan. Kalo aku tetap lalai dan alpa, malaikat nak cabut, ianya tidak akan cepat sesaat dan tidak akan lambat sesaat pon.
Semoga aku diberi keinsafan. Amin
ps: Masih terasa sakit lagi dada ku nie.
I felt a sudden pain on my chest. My lungs felt like collapsing and I have difficulty breathing. My hands felt cold afterwards and I began to tremble and shiver. Oh, what's happening to me? Am I gonna die? Will this be my last moment?...
I laid my head down and closed my eyes. The pain was excruciating. Like a knife piercing thru my heart, every breath I gasped was gruelling. Breathing was so exhausting at that point of time. Arrgghh...I have to fight it! I began to experience blurred visions. I couldn't see with my left eye. My left side of brain felt strainous. High cholesterol ke??
As I keep my eyes closed, lots of things running thru my head. What if tomorrow never comes? Am I prepared to leave. What were my deeds? Have I done enough? Oh God, spare my life for this moment. There's too much I've not done...too much and too little time.
15min later, talipon ku berdering.
"Assalamualaikum? Aper khabar?" Shaf was at the other end. "Wa'alaikumsalam, kurang sihat bro. Dada aku tetiba sakit nie. Mcm nak mati pon ader.." aku jawab.
"Tu ler..isap rokok banyak sangat." Shaf perli aku. "Kira dah cut down ler nie." aku menidakkan nyer. Tapi mungkin ler. Aku rasa sudah tiba masanya utk aku berhenti tabiat tu. But kekadang susah ler. Kerja ku terlampau stress.
"Malam jumaat nie on tak? Dah berminggu kau tak datang.." Shaf menanyakan tentang kelas fardhu 'ain yg kami kerap hadir pada tiap minggu.
Diam tak diam, dah sebulan lebih aku tak datang. Tapi waktu kerja ku begitu padat sebulan dua nie. Ishh...dah banyak jugak pelajaran aku tertinggal nie. Terasa mcm bersalah lak. Seharusnya aku sambung kelas fardhu 'ain tu. Tak ada faedahnya kalo asyik mencari dunia, sedang kan akhirat aku lalai kan. Karang nyawaku dicabut tetiba...menyesal tak sudah. Tadi nyaris tuu..tu baru gazzette jek tuu..
"Ermm..ok ler. Kalo aku sihat nie, aku kol kao. Kiter gie sama2, ok." aku memberi jaminan pada Shaf yg aku tak nak ponteng lagi.
Mungkin pengalaman hari nie menyedarkan aku betapa rapuh nyawa kita. Tuhan masih sayangkan aku. Aku masih sempat diberi peringatan. Kalo aku tetap lalai dan alpa, malaikat nak cabut, ianya tidak akan cepat sesaat dan tidak akan lambat sesaat pon.
Semoga aku diberi keinsafan. Amin
ps: Masih terasa sakit lagi dada ku nie.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Hari ini dalam idupku
Aku dok mlm nie depan pc..termenung. Termenung aper nak dibuat dulu.
Banyak perkara harus dibereskan. Dalam kepala otak aku nie mcm2 ader. Kira RAM kat otak aku running full speed. Tak bole jadi nie, nak kena upgrade to Pentium Core Duo 2...hehe!
Sampai opis tadi kol 11 pagi. Wak Din call suruh bawak troley pasal dia nak angkut monitor 19" bawak balik umah..
Lepas tuu, aku scan email lerr. Ader ler dpt citer pasal Hans Issac & Erra tuu. Ishh tak abes-abes! Sudah ler tuu. Hakikat orang bercinta per. Tuu hari aku ader letak comment jugak dlm Galaxie Blog citer pasal mereka tuu. (Click here)
Aku rasa tak payah ler nak ungkit pasal privacy dia orang ..Kesian dia orang. Asyik kena kutuk jek.
Sebelom lunch, aku kena rush buat building model for SGH Pathology Centre. Issh..Lengit seyyy! Nak turun minom air pon tak bole. Si Idris dah tercegat sebelah aku nie ajak turun bawah. Apa lagi, dgn cutter, cutting mat, ruler, drawing plan...aku angkut bawak turun bawah skali...hehehe, we call it multi-tasking deyy!!!
Lunch kat Fork & Spoon, Toa Payoh. Aku plan nak gie Standard Chartered Bank to pay bills pakai cash deposit kat HDB Hub. Sekali dah takde lagi lerr kat tingkat 3 tuu. Siot! Penat seyy cari. Merayau-rayau dari tingkat 1 ke tingkat 3, dari tingkat 3 gie tingkat 1 cari Cash Deposit Machine tuh. At last aku give up. Harapan menjadi hampa gas! Aku batal kan niat jek nak bayar kat situ lagi. Lain kali aku send pakai cheque suahh.
Si Shahrul lak kol. Dia tanyer CD lagu rock dia tu aku dah burn ke blum?? Oh! terforgot aku nak tanyer Adzam. hmm..si Adzam lak takde. Dia kena reservist, gie tangkap bangla kat Woodlands. Aku bilang Shahrul CD rock dia tu tunda lagi seminggu sampai Adzam balik.
After lunch pulak, kena set date appointment for inspection utk project kat Jln Keli. Lerr...pening sey! Daing sabo aku. Aku request suruh dia turun for inspection. Senang sikit deal ngan dia. Tak banyak songel. Skali Koh Ai Hwee lak yg reply application nie..alaa..hancuss program! Si client tu dok blur jek. Forms sumer blom submit kat aku. Dah 8 kali sms dia kasi reminder. I don't care man, aku whack submit aku nyer bill invoices dulu. At least dapat cover cash flow for this month.
Lepas tu Ivy from Nparks email mintak drawings for Stamford Green project kat Fort Canning. Mdm Wong from URA called suruh bebual ngan Senior Architect dia si Kelvin (Lembut) tuh..Dia tanyer apasal nak pecahkan tembok kat National Museum?? Arrgghh...aku busy ler!! Jgn ganggu!
Si Fendey lak email tanyer contacts kat Dubai. Dia nak cari kejer kat sana. Majok kaper dek nie? Sampai nak lari angkot anak bini gie Dubai?? -Cheh! Emo jugak jantan sorang tuu..
Ketak-ketik dah pukol 5ptg. Rita kol nak jumpa kat Starbuck. Ishh apahal lak?? Baru nak buat schedule utk besok site meeting. Aku divert office phone gie hp. Nie mesti ader hal penting nie..
Rita citer ler kisah relationship dia ngan si Husin tuu...Dia keciwa pasal harapan cinta dia tak kesampaian..Panjang lebar dia cerita kan kat aku. Sampai nak meleleh air mata, air idung dia aku tgk. Tapi aku tahu dia control jamboo takut make up basah. Kesian jugak dgr kisah dia. Banyak soalan2 yg tak dapat ku terjawab. Hanya setakat mendengar rintihan hati nyer yg luka itu.
"Why these happened to me all the time?" Rita seperti tidak dapat menerima kenyataan. I feel like S**T!"..first time seyy aku dgr Rita cakap perkataan tuu..Wahh, frust giler kaper dek nie??
"Ermm...Mungkin ader sesuatu yg tersembunyi yg tak kiter ketahui. Tuhan itu maha mengetahui. Dia tahu aper yg terbaik untuk kiter. Mungkin yg lebih baik telah disediakan utk kiter. Only time will tell..." aku cuba mententeram Rita. "You just don't give up, ok."
2 jam aku dok dgr keluhan Rita. At least, she felt ok after that. Sista dia called and she has to leave.
"If you have anything, or need someone to talk, let me know..." and we say our goodbyes.
Aku rushed balik naik office pasal ader lagi kejer terbengkalai..
"Kring...kring!" Mak aku tepon. Dia ader kat hospital tengok nenek. Aku kata jap lagi aku sampai.
"hmm..kat ofis nie. Ader kejer nak settlekan sikit. Be there in 30mins" aku jawab balik. Kol 8.15pm aku sampai Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Nurse tgk aku atas bawah. Dia kata mlm nie pon aku lagi on rounds ke?? Dia ingat aku student doctor ler! Ahahahaa!!
Tak sangka, ader tokoh jadi doktor ke aku nie? hahaha..dlm mimpi ler! Biology subject aku failed nak jadi doktor kebenda!
Nenek aku masih tenat. Tido jek. Panggil nama dia pon masih belum sedar. Kesian. Teringat dulu time aku main bola terseliuh kaki. Dia ler yg urut kaki ku sampai baik. Dulu masa mak aku pindah johor, dia ler yg bela aku kat Spore nie. Skrang lak dia terlantar kat hospital. Aku tak mampu nak lakukan aper2..Setakat memanjat kan doa yg terbaik utk nyer.
Aku cari mak aku takde lak dlm wad. Gie mana lak nie? Main semuyik2 ke ngan aku. Aku kol handphone dia. Dia ader kat tingkat 3 sedang solat. Dia cakap kalo aku nak balik, balik ler dulu..dia nak teman kan makcik ku yg ader melawat diketika itu. Aku bergegas ler balik.
Abt 10mlm baru sampai umah. Lom sempat mandi aku terus melantak nasi briyani yg aku beli kat kedai mamak tadi. Kelaparan ler..lom makan malam nie. After my shower, aku switch on PC. aku sambung buat kejer ofis lagi. Syasya was online, Si Idris pon online..Layan chat kejap.
Nisha SMS lak. Dia nak dengar suara ku kat tepon. Aku declined. I'm sorry Nisha. Suara ku tak semerdu. Aku gugup bila berkata-kata. Kalo setakat SMS ok lerr..I hope she understands.
Diam tak diam, jam dah ke pukol 2 pagi. Mata dah layu. Esok another long day for me. Have to finish up the inspection checklist then, do work planning for tomorrow...Arrgghh!! Stress seyy!
Yes, I am busy. If only I'm given 25 hours a day, I'll be the happiest person in the world!
This my life... I have to be happy with it!
Goodnytez!
Banyak perkara harus dibereskan. Dalam kepala otak aku nie mcm2 ader. Kira RAM kat otak aku running full speed. Tak bole jadi nie, nak kena upgrade to Pentium Core Duo 2...hehe!
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Sampai opis tadi kol 11 pagi. Wak Din call suruh bawak troley pasal dia nak angkut monitor 19" bawak balik umah..
Lepas tuu, aku scan email lerr. Ader ler dpt citer pasal Hans Issac & Erra tuu. Ishh tak abes-abes! Sudah ler tuu. Hakikat orang bercinta per. Tuu hari aku ader letak comment jugak dlm Galaxie Blog citer pasal mereka tuu. (Click here)
Aku rasa tak payah ler nak ungkit pasal privacy dia orang ..Kesian dia orang. Asyik kena kutuk jek.
Sebelom lunch, aku kena rush buat building model for SGH Pathology Centre. Issh..Lengit seyyy! Nak turun minom air pon tak bole. Si Idris dah tercegat sebelah aku nie ajak turun bawah. Apa lagi, dgn cutter, cutting mat, ruler, drawing plan...aku angkut bawak turun bawah skali...hehehe, we call it multi-tasking deyy!!!
Lunch kat Fork & Spoon, Toa Payoh. Aku plan nak gie Standard Chartered Bank to pay bills pakai cash deposit kat HDB Hub. Sekali dah takde lagi lerr kat tingkat 3 tuu. Siot! Penat seyy cari. Merayau-rayau dari tingkat 1 ke tingkat 3, dari tingkat 3 gie tingkat 1 cari Cash Deposit Machine tuh. At last aku give up. Harapan menjadi hampa gas! Aku batal kan niat jek nak bayar kat situ lagi. Lain kali aku send pakai cheque suahh.
Si Shahrul lak kol. Dia tanyer CD lagu rock dia tu aku dah burn ke blum?? Oh! terforgot aku nak tanyer Adzam. hmm..si Adzam lak takde. Dia kena reservist, gie tangkap bangla kat Woodlands. Aku bilang Shahrul CD rock dia tu tunda lagi seminggu sampai Adzam balik.
After lunch pulak, kena set date appointment for inspection utk project kat Jln Keli. Lerr...pening sey! Daing sabo aku. Aku request suruh dia turun for inspection. Senang sikit deal ngan dia. Tak banyak songel. Skali Koh Ai Hwee lak yg reply application nie..alaa..hancuss program! Si client tu dok blur jek. Forms sumer blom submit kat aku. Dah 8 kali sms dia kasi reminder. I don't care man, aku whack submit aku nyer bill invoices dulu. At least dapat cover cash flow for this month.
Lepas tu Ivy from Nparks email mintak drawings for Stamford Green project kat Fort Canning. Mdm Wong from URA called suruh bebual ngan Senior Architect dia si Kelvin (Lembut) tuh..Dia tanyer apasal nak pecahkan tembok kat National Museum?? Arrgghh...aku busy ler!! Jgn ganggu!
Si Fendey lak email tanyer contacts kat Dubai. Dia nak cari kejer kat sana. Majok kaper dek nie? Sampai nak lari angkot anak bini gie Dubai?? -Cheh! Emo jugak jantan sorang tuu..
Ketak-ketik dah pukol 5ptg. Rita kol nak jumpa kat Starbuck. Ishh apahal lak?? Baru nak buat schedule utk besok site meeting. Aku divert office phone gie hp. Nie mesti ader hal penting nie..
Rita citer ler kisah relationship dia ngan si Husin tuu...Dia keciwa pasal harapan cinta dia tak kesampaian..Panjang lebar dia cerita kan kat aku. Sampai nak meleleh air mata, air idung dia aku tgk. Tapi aku tahu dia control jamboo takut make up basah. Kesian jugak dgr kisah dia. Banyak soalan2 yg tak dapat ku terjawab. Hanya setakat mendengar rintihan hati nyer yg luka itu.
"Why these happened to me all the time?" Rita seperti tidak dapat menerima kenyataan. I feel like S**T!"..first time seyy aku dgr Rita cakap perkataan tuu..Wahh, frust giler kaper dek nie??
"Ermm...Mungkin ader sesuatu yg tersembunyi yg tak kiter ketahui. Tuhan itu maha mengetahui. Dia tahu aper yg terbaik untuk kiter. Mungkin yg lebih baik telah disediakan utk kiter. Only time will tell..." aku cuba mententeram Rita. "You just don't give up, ok."
2 jam aku dok dgr keluhan Rita. At least, she felt ok after that. Sista dia called and she has to leave.
"If you have anything, or need someone to talk, let me know..." and we say our goodbyes.
Aku rushed balik naik office pasal ader lagi kejer terbengkalai..
"Kring...kring!" Mak aku tepon. Dia ader kat hospital tengok nenek. Aku kata jap lagi aku sampai.
"hmm..kat ofis nie. Ader kejer nak settlekan sikit. Be there in 30mins" aku jawab balik. Kol 8.15pm aku sampai Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Nurse tgk aku atas bawah. Dia kata mlm nie pon aku lagi on rounds ke?? Dia ingat aku student doctor ler! Ahahahaa!!
Tak sangka, ader tokoh jadi doktor ke aku nie? hahaha..dlm mimpi ler! Biology subject aku failed nak jadi doktor kebenda!
Nenek aku masih tenat. Tido jek. Panggil nama dia pon masih belum sedar. Kesian. Teringat dulu time aku main bola terseliuh kaki. Dia ler yg urut kaki ku sampai baik. Dulu masa mak aku pindah johor, dia ler yg bela aku kat Spore nie. Skrang lak dia terlantar kat hospital. Aku tak mampu nak lakukan aper2..Setakat memanjat kan doa yg terbaik utk nyer.
Aku cari mak aku takde lak dlm wad. Gie mana lak nie? Main semuyik2 ke ngan aku. Aku kol handphone dia. Dia ader kat tingkat 3 sedang solat. Dia cakap kalo aku nak balik, balik ler dulu..dia nak teman kan makcik ku yg ader melawat diketika itu. Aku bergegas ler balik.
Abt 10mlm baru sampai umah. Lom sempat mandi aku terus melantak nasi briyani yg aku beli kat kedai mamak tadi. Kelaparan ler..lom makan malam nie. After my shower, aku switch on PC. aku sambung buat kejer ofis lagi. Syasya was online, Si Idris pon online..Layan chat kejap.
Nisha SMS lak. Dia nak dengar suara ku kat tepon. Aku declined. I'm sorry Nisha. Suara ku tak semerdu. Aku gugup bila berkata-kata. Kalo setakat SMS ok lerr..I hope she understands.
Diam tak diam, jam dah ke pukol 2 pagi. Mata dah layu. Esok another long day for me. Have to finish up the inspection checklist then, do work planning for tomorrow...Arrgghh!! Stress seyy!
Yes, I am busy. If only I'm given 25 hours a day, I'll be the happiest person in the world!
This my life... I have to be happy with it!
Goodnytez!
Friday, July 27, 2007
Am I beautiful?
As the saying goes, Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Define "beauty" : (n) The quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality.
But what really is the perception of a person’s beauty? No one can precisely described the true meaning. Beauty itself is subjective.
Pernah sekali aku memberitahu kepada Anida bahawa kecantikan sejati bukan terletak pada luaran zahirnya. Kecantikan yang sempurna itu datang dari dalam jiwa kita, rohani dan hati yang bersih.
Bagiku, itulah erti kecantikan yg sempurna…
Rita menelefon aku suatu hari. Pada mulanya perbualan kami agak santai. Setakat bertanyakan kemajuan kerjaya masing-masing dan tidak lebih dari itu.
“I ada rahsia nak katakan pada you. Can you keep a little secret?” kata-kata Rita yg menyinggah ke cuping telinga ku ini.
“Eh, sounds serious nie? Ermm..you trust me?” aku meminta kepastian jika dia benar ingin memberitahu ku rahsia itu.
“I recently met this guy..hmm..baru jer kenal. I nak mintak pandangan dari you, from a guy’s persepective.” jelas Rita.
Aku mendapat tahu Rita baru berkenalan dengan seorang jejaka dari ruangan online dating portal di internet. Pada mula nyer mereka setakat berkomunikasi melalui email dan SMS. Namun, hari demi hari, 'pertemuan' dialam maya itu menjadi rancak dan erat. Hingga suatu hari itu, si jejaka yg bernama Husin, mula menyatakan hasrat utk ketemu dengan kawan ku, Rita.
Rita agak berwaspada sikit pada mulanya. Tapi oleh kerana dengan keihklasan dan kejujuran Husin yang begitu bersungguh-sungguh, akhirnya pertemuan janji mereka di salah sebuah restoran Pizza Hut.
Gugup, gementar, cuak, cemas…mcm-mcm lah yg Rita rasa kan . Ketika asyik dilamun khayalan menantikan kehadiran Husin, tetiba muncul seorang jejaka berdiri segak dihadapan Rita. Secara jujur, mereka tidak pernah mengenali wajah masing-masing, tapi mungkin arus naluri mereka yg kuat, mereka seolah tahu siapa diantara mereka.
"So how was he? Handsome ke?" aku mencelah kaypoh.
“Oohhh…not bad looking. It’s beyong my expectation.” Rita dgn nada gediknya. “He’s tall, well-built and quite a good looking.” pujian Rita lagi.
“Infact, for the first 2 minutes, it was just silence between us. We just smiled at each other until he break the ice.” ujar Rita sambil membayangkan keadaan ketika perjumpaan itu.
Husin seorang pramugara SIA yg baru saja pulang dari Germany pada awal pagi itu. Oleh kerana keesokan harinya dia akan berlepas terbang ke New York pula, maka malam itu lah yg paling sesuai utk mereka bertemu.
“It was a good date. He’s well-mannered and I’m very comfortable with him. He’s very sincere and he laid his objectives well. So, that’s why I think this has to be the best dating game I’ve been so far.” Rita sambung perbualanya lebih lanjut.
Husin berterus terang tentang hasratnya utk mencari teman hidup yg sesuai untuk diri nya kelak. Dia ingin mencari seorang wanita muslimah untuk dijadikan sebagai isteri, yg teguh pada agama, kerana beliau percaya itulah tiang kebahagian rumahtangga.
Ya, aku akur. Untuk mencari isteri, bukan kerana rupa yang cantik, bukan kerana harta yang banyak, tetapi asas agamanya yang kukuh. Aku yakin, Rita mempunyai sifat2 wanita idaman yg dicari itu. Beliau bukan saja seorang yang bijak, tetapi amat menitik beratkan hal uhkrawi dan keimanan dlm kehidupannya.
Pertemuan malam itu begitu bermanfaat sekali dalam mengenali peribadi dan hati budi masing2.
“I hope that would not be the last time we met.” Rita ungkap keraguan hati kecilnya. “I think he's my best choice at the moment. Would really want to meet him again.”
“So, why not you set the next date. I think that would be fair, right?” jelas ku.
"He’s seldom here lah, that’s why. We SMS to keep in touch, but now he seldom reply to me. Kenapa ek? Maybe he's too busy? I tried to keep cool and not to be so pushy..but I really don’t want to loose him.” Rita mula menampakan keserasianya terhadap Husin, tidak seperti jejaka lain yang pernah diketemukan sebelum ini.
Aku mengerti perasaan wanita. Bah kan ianya satu perasaan semula jadi setiap manusia. Bibit-bibit kasih telah mula tampak menghiasi ruangan hatinya diketika itu.
“I’m not sure if it’s infatuation. I’m too old for that I think. I bukan budak remaja lagi.” jelas Rita. “Or maybe.... I’m not as attractive as he might has expected tak?”
“That would be another matter, if you both are not thinking maturely. WE are not talking about infatuation or puppy love or whatever for this instance," aku cuba mententeramkan gelora dihati Rita.
“You are just as perfect. Why be so self-inferior?” jelas aku lagi. “You have to be confident about yourself. You have to feel good about yourself. To be that way, you have to know deep beneath about yourself and be sincere about this relationship.”
“SIGH!” Rita mengeluh. “I don’t want to fail this relationship. If it fails again...I'll not commit to love anymore. Maybe, I’m not the type he’s looking for...I tak cantik.”
"Look Rita, you are just perfect yourself. Tiada cacat celanya. Why you worry about that?” Aku memujuk Rita yg mula merasa ragu tentang keyakinan pada dirinya.
Dulu, Anida juga pernah mengungkapkan tentang perkara ini kepada ku. Begitu juga bersama Cikgu Nadirah ketika kami 'berchatting online' dahulu. Adakah lelaki semua hanya melihat dasar kecantikan wanita itu dari segi paras rupa saja?
“So wat do you think, Zue? Am I beautiful?” Rita mencari kepastian dari ku.
Kecantikan itu tidak dapat di kayu ukur dengan paras rupa atau pon dilihat dari segi fizikal diri ini. Kerana, erti kecantikan seseorang itu jelas bebeza pada siapa yg melihatnya, bukan?
It’s a little naïve if you love someone just because of the gorgeous looks. The true beauty lies beneath oneself and its when the inner beauty shines, the true beauty of oneself shows.
Everyone is a beauty to the Creator. So you are beautiful too...
Define "beauty" : (n) The quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality.
But what really is the perception of a person’s beauty? No one can precisely described the true meaning. Beauty itself is subjective.
Pernah sekali aku memberitahu kepada Anida bahawa kecantikan sejati bukan terletak pada luaran zahirnya. Kecantikan yang sempurna itu datang dari dalam jiwa kita, rohani dan hati yang bersih.
Bagiku, itulah erti kecantikan yg sempurna…
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Rita menelefon aku suatu hari. Pada mulanya perbualan kami agak santai. Setakat bertanyakan kemajuan kerjaya masing-masing dan tidak lebih dari itu.
“I ada rahsia nak katakan pada you. Can you keep a little secret?” kata-kata Rita yg menyinggah ke cuping telinga ku ini.
“Eh, sounds serious nie? Ermm..you trust me?” aku meminta kepastian jika dia benar ingin memberitahu ku rahsia itu.
“I recently met this guy..hmm..baru jer kenal. I nak mintak pandangan dari you, from a guy’s persepective.” jelas Rita.
Aku mendapat tahu Rita baru berkenalan dengan seorang jejaka dari ruangan online dating portal di internet. Pada mula nyer mereka setakat berkomunikasi melalui email dan SMS. Namun, hari demi hari, 'pertemuan' dialam maya itu menjadi rancak dan erat. Hingga suatu hari itu, si jejaka yg bernama Husin, mula menyatakan hasrat utk ketemu dengan kawan ku, Rita.
Rita agak berwaspada sikit pada mulanya. Tapi oleh kerana dengan keihklasan dan kejujuran Husin yang begitu bersungguh-sungguh, akhirnya pertemuan janji mereka di salah sebuah restoran Pizza Hut.
Gugup, gementar, cuak, cemas…mcm-mcm lah yg Rita rasa kan . Ketika asyik dilamun khayalan menantikan kehadiran Husin, tetiba muncul seorang jejaka berdiri segak dihadapan Rita. Secara jujur, mereka tidak pernah mengenali wajah masing-masing, tapi mungkin arus naluri mereka yg kuat, mereka seolah tahu siapa diantara mereka.
"So how was he? Handsome ke?" aku mencelah kaypoh.
“Oohhh…not bad looking. It’s beyong my expectation.” Rita dgn nada gediknya. “He’s tall, well-built and quite a good looking.” pujian Rita lagi.
“Infact, for the first 2 minutes, it was just silence between us. We just smiled at each other until he break the ice.” ujar Rita sambil membayangkan keadaan ketika perjumpaan itu.
Husin seorang pramugara SIA yg baru saja pulang dari Germany pada awal pagi itu. Oleh kerana keesokan harinya dia akan berlepas terbang ke New York pula, maka malam itu lah yg paling sesuai utk mereka bertemu.
“It was a good date. He’s well-mannered and I’m very comfortable with him. He’s very sincere and he laid his objectives well. So, that’s why I think this has to be the best dating game I’ve been so far.” Rita sambung perbualanya lebih lanjut.
Husin berterus terang tentang hasratnya utk mencari teman hidup yg sesuai untuk diri nya kelak. Dia ingin mencari seorang wanita muslimah untuk dijadikan sebagai isteri, yg teguh pada agama, kerana beliau percaya itulah tiang kebahagian rumahtangga.
Ya, aku akur. Untuk mencari isteri, bukan kerana rupa yang cantik, bukan kerana harta yang banyak, tetapi asas agamanya yang kukuh. Aku yakin, Rita mempunyai sifat2 wanita idaman yg dicari itu. Beliau bukan saja seorang yang bijak, tetapi amat menitik beratkan hal uhkrawi dan keimanan dlm kehidupannya.
Pertemuan malam itu begitu bermanfaat sekali dalam mengenali peribadi dan hati budi masing2.
“I hope that would not be the last time we met.” Rita ungkap keraguan hati kecilnya. “I think he's my best choice at the moment. Would really want to meet him again.”
“So, why not you set the next date. I think that would be fair, right?” jelas ku.
"He’s seldom here lah, that’s why. We SMS to keep in touch, but now he seldom reply to me. Kenapa ek? Maybe he's too busy? I tried to keep cool and not to be so pushy..but I really don’t want to loose him.” Rita mula menampakan keserasianya terhadap Husin, tidak seperti jejaka lain yang pernah diketemukan sebelum ini.
Aku mengerti perasaan wanita. Bah kan ianya satu perasaan semula jadi setiap manusia. Bibit-bibit kasih telah mula tampak menghiasi ruangan hatinya diketika itu.
“I’m not sure if it’s infatuation. I’m too old for that I think. I bukan budak remaja lagi.” jelas Rita. “Or maybe.... I’m not as attractive as he might has expected tak?”
“That would be another matter, if you both are not thinking maturely. WE are not talking about infatuation or puppy love or whatever for this instance," aku cuba mententeramkan gelora dihati Rita.
“You are just as perfect. Why be so self-inferior?” jelas aku lagi. “You have to be confident about yourself. You have to feel good about yourself. To be that way, you have to know deep beneath about yourself and be sincere about this relationship.”
“SIGH!” Rita mengeluh. “I don’t want to fail this relationship. If it fails again...I'll not commit to love anymore. Maybe, I’m not the type he’s looking for...I tak cantik.”
"Look Rita, you are just perfect yourself. Tiada cacat celanya. Why you worry about that?” Aku memujuk Rita yg mula merasa ragu tentang keyakinan pada dirinya.
Dulu, Anida juga pernah mengungkapkan tentang perkara ini kepada ku. Begitu juga bersama Cikgu Nadirah ketika kami 'berchatting online' dahulu. Adakah lelaki semua hanya melihat dasar kecantikan wanita itu dari segi paras rupa saja?
“So wat do you think, Zue? Am I beautiful?” Rita mencari kepastian dari ku.
Kecantikan itu tidak dapat di kayu ukur dengan paras rupa atau pon dilihat dari segi fizikal diri ini. Kerana, erti kecantikan seseorang itu jelas bebeza pada siapa yg melihatnya, bukan?
It’s a little naïve if you love someone just because of the gorgeous looks. The true beauty lies beneath oneself and its when the inner beauty shines, the true beauty of oneself shows.
Everyone is a beauty to the Creator. So you are beautiful too...
(Above is a true story...but Rita is not her name.)
You're beautiful
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