I experienced the most harrowing moment in my life.
I felt a sudden pain on my chest. My lungs felt like collapsing and I have difficulty breathing. My hands felt cold afterwards and I began to tremble and shiver. Oh, what's happening to me? Am I gonna die? Will this be my last moment?...
I laid my head down and closed my eyes. The pain was excruciating. Like a knife piercing thru my heart, every breath I gasped was gruelling. Breathing was so exhausting at that point of time. Arrgghh...I have to fight it! I began to experience blurred visions. I couldn't see with my left eye. My left side of brain felt strainous. High cholesterol ke??
As I keep my eyes closed, lots of things running thru my head. What if tomorrow never comes? Am I prepared to leave. What were my deeds? Have I done enough? Oh God, spare my life for this moment. There's too much I've not done...too much and too little time.
15min later, talipon ku berdering.
"Assalamualaikum? Aper khabar?" Shaf was at the other end. "Wa'alaikumsalam, kurang sihat bro. Dada aku tetiba sakit nie. Mcm nak mati pon ader.." aku jawab.
"Tu ler..isap rokok banyak sangat." Shaf perli aku. "Kira dah cut down ler nie." aku menidakkan nyer. Tapi mungkin ler. Aku rasa sudah tiba masanya utk aku berhenti tabiat tu. But kekadang susah ler. Kerja ku terlampau stress.
"Malam jumaat nie on tak? Dah berminggu kau tak datang.." Shaf menanyakan tentang kelas fardhu 'ain yg kami kerap hadir pada tiap minggu.
Diam tak diam, dah sebulan lebih aku tak datang. Tapi waktu kerja ku begitu padat sebulan dua nie. Ishh...dah banyak jugak pelajaran aku tertinggal nie. Terasa mcm bersalah lak. Seharusnya aku sambung kelas fardhu 'ain tu. Tak ada faedahnya kalo asyik mencari dunia, sedang kan akhirat aku lalai kan. Karang nyawaku dicabut tetiba...menyesal tak sudah. Tadi nyaris tuu..tu baru gazzette jek tuu..
"Ermm..ok ler. Kalo aku sihat nie, aku kol kao. Kiter gie sama2, ok." aku memberi jaminan pada Shaf yg aku tak nak ponteng lagi.
Mungkin pengalaman hari nie menyedarkan aku betapa rapuh nyawa kita. Tuhan masih sayangkan aku. Aku masih sempat diberi peringatan. Kalo aku tetap lalai dan alpa, malaikat nak cabut, ianya tidak akan cepat sesaat dan tidak akan lambat sesaat pon.
"It's one of those days when you're slammed at work and then have to deal with a few too many tasks at home. It's a good thing you're so organized, or you'd be tearing your hair out. Take a few minutes to chill before bed."
Weekend ended so fast! It seems I don't enjoy weekends anymore.
Saturday made a trip to client's office to sort out projects planning for the next few weeks. Schedules slightly delayed due to construction work extension of time. Client has already settled progress payments. So, cash flow for the company shouldn't be affected till end of this month. Monday will make trips to banks. Other projects clearances targetted to obtain by this week. So should be prepared for phonecalls from authorities.
Tuesday planning to visit Jln Keli. Need to inspect the premises to prepare for the upcoming BCA inspection next week. Wonder what's the outcome of the site. Yvonne has not got back to me with anything. I hope the checklist given is useful.
Today, didn't do much of anything. I slept most of the day. Maybe later need to prepare documents for tomorrow's PUB submissions for Jln Keli and Bridport Ave.
I wonder what's happening with Yong's Holland Park project? Kept texting me last Friday. Yong's projects have been stagnant for the pass few months. Does he know what to do next? He better be, or else....
"Hello, thank you for your support. It's my homemade snack just finding extra cash for my therapy. Here's my no.91156410. You can contact me if you wanna place your orders. Thank you."
Aku dok mlm nie depan pc..termenung. Termenung aper nak dibuat dulu.
Banyak perkara harus dibereskan. Dalam kepala otak aku nie mcm2 ader. Kira RAM kat otak aku running full speed. Tak bole jadi nie, nak kena upgrade to Pentium Core Duo 2...hehe!
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Sampai opis tadi kol 11 pagi. Wak Din call suruh bawak troley pasal dia nak angkut monitor 19" bawak balik umah..
Lepas tuu, aku scan email lerr. Ader ler dpt citer pasal Hans Issac & Erra tuu. Ishh tak abes-abes! Sudah ler tuu. Hakikat orang bercinta per. Tuu hari aku ader letak comment jugak dlm Galaxie Blog citer pasal mereka tuu. (Click here)
Aku rasa tak payah ler nak ungkit pasal privacy dia orang ..Kesian dia orang. Asyik kena kutuk jek.
Sebelom lunch, aku kena rush buat building model for SGH Pathology Centre. Issh..Lengit seyyy! Nak turun minom air pon tak bole. Si Idris dah tercegat sebelah aku nie ajak turun bawah. Apa lagi, dgn cutter, cutting mat, ruler, drawing plan...aku angkut bawak turun bawah skali...hehehe, we call it multi-tasking deyy!!!
Lunch kat Fork & Spoon, Toa Payoh. Aku plan nak gie Standard Chartered Bank to pay bills pakai cash deposit kat HDB Hub. Sekali dah takde lagi lerr kat tingkat 3 tuu. Siot! Penat seyy cari. Merayau-rayau dari tingkat 1 ke tingkat 3, dari tingkat 3 gie tingkat 1 cari Cash Deposit Machine tuh. At last aku give up. Harapan menjadi hampa gas! Aku batal kan niat jek nak bayar kat situ lagi. Lain kali aku send pakai cheque suahh.
Si Shahrul lak kol. Dia tanyer CD lagu rock dia tu aku dah burn ke blum?? Oh! terforgot aku nak tanyer Adzam. hmm..si Adzam lak takde. Dia kena reservist, gie tangkap bangla kat Woodlands. Aku bilang Shahrul CD rock dia tu tunda lagi seminggu sampai Adzam balik.
After lunch pulak, kena set date appointment for inspection utk project kat Jln Keli. Lerr...pening sey! Daing sabo aku. Aku request suruh dia turun for inspection. Senang sikit deal ngan dia. Tak banyak songel. Skali Koh Ai Hwee lak yg reply application nie..alaa..hancuss program! Si client tu dok blur jek. Forms sumer blom submit kat aku. Dah 8 kali sms dia kasi reminder. I don't care man, aku whack submit aku nyer bill invoices dulu. At least dapat cover cash flow for this month.
Lepas tu Ivy from Nparks email mintak drawings for Stamford Green project kat Fort Canning. Mdm Wong from URA called suruh bebual ngan Senior Architect dia si Kelvin (Lembut) tuh..Dia tanyer apasal nak pecahkan tembok kat National Museum?? Arrgghh...aku busy ler!! Jgn ganggu!
Si Fendey lak email tanyer contacts kat Dubai. Dia nak cari kejer kat sana. Majok kaper dek nie? Sampai nak lari angkot anak bini gie Dubai?? -Cheh! Emo jugak jantan sorang tuu..
Ketak-ketik dah pukol 5ptg. Rita kol nak jumpa kat Starbuck. Ishh apahal lak?? Baru nak buat schedule utk besok site meeting. Aku divert office phone gie hp. Nie mesti ader hal penting nie..
Rita citer ler kisah relationship dia ngan si Husin tuu...Dia keciwa pasal harapan cinta dia tak kesampaian..Panjang lebar dia cerita kan kat aku. Sampai nak meleleh air mata, air idung dia aku tgk. Tapi aku tahu dia control jamboo takut make up basah. Kesian jugak dgr kisah dia. Banyak soalan2 yg tak dapat ku terjawab. Hanya setakat mendengar rintihan hati nyer yg luka itu.
"Why these happened to me all the time?" Rita seperti tidak dapat menerima kenyataan. I feel like S**T!"..first time seyy aku dgr Rita cakap perkataan tuu..Wahh, frust giler kaper dek nie??
"Ermm...Mungkin ader sesuatu yg tersembunyi yg tak kiter ketahui. Tuhan itu maha mengetahui. Dia tahu aper yg terbaik untuk kiter. Mungkin yg lebih baik telah disediakan utk kiter. Only time will tell..." aku cuba mententeram Rita. "You just don't give up, ok."
2 jam aku dok dgr keluhan Rita. At least, she felt ok after that. Sista dia called and she has to leave.
"If you have anything, or need someone to talk, let me know..." and we say our goodbyes.
Aku rushed balik naik office pasal ader lagi kejer terbengkalai..
"Kring...kring!" Mak aku tepon. Dia ader kat hospital tengok nenek. Aku kata jap lagi aku sampai.
"hmm..kat ofis nie. Ader kejer nak settlekan sikit. Be there in 30mins" aku jawab balik. Kol 8.15pm aku sampai Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Nurse tgk aku atas bawah. Dia kata mlm nie pon aku lagi on rounds ke?? Dia ingat aku student doctor ler! Ahahahaa!!
Tak sangka, ader tokoh jadi doktor ke aku nie? hahaha..dlm mimpi ler! Biology subject aku failed nak jadi doktor kebenda!
Nenek aku masih tenat. Tido jek. Panggil nama dia pon masih belum sedar. Kesian. Teringat dulu time aku main bola terseliuh kaki. Dia ler yg urut kaki ku sampai baik. Dulu masa mak aku pindah johor, dia ler yg bela aku kat Spore nie. Skrang lak dia terlantar kat hospital. Aku tak mampu nak lakukan aper2..Setakat memanjat kan doa yg terbaik utk nyer.
Aku cari mak aku takde lak dlm wad. Gie mana lak nie? Main semuyik2 ke ngan aku. Aku kol handphone dia. Dia ader kat tingkat 3 sedang solat. Dia cakap kalo aku nak balik, balik ler dulu..dia nak teman kan makcik ku yg ader melawat diketika itu. Aku bergegas ler balik.
Abt 10mlm baru sampai umah. Lom sempat mandi aku terus melantak nasi briyani yg aku beli kat kedai mamak tadi. Kelaparan ler..lom makan malam nie. After my shower, aku switch on PC. aku sambung buat kejer ofis lagi. Syasya was online, Si Idris pon online..Layan chat kejap.
Nisha SMS lak. Dia nak dengar suara ku kat tepon. Aku declined. I'm sorry Nisha. Suara ku tak semerdu. Aku gugup bila berkata-kata. Kalo setakat SMS ok lerr..I hope she understands.
Diam tak diam, jam dah ke pukol 2 pagi. Mata dah layu. Esok another long day for me. Have to finish up the inspection checklist then, do work planning for tomorrow...Arrgghh!! Stress seyy!
Yes, I am busy. If only I'm given 25 hours a day, I'll be the happiest person in the world!
Kekadang tengok orang gie holiday terasa macam seronok gitu..
I couldn't remember when was the last time I went for a holiday break..What I mean A REAL HOLIDAY BREAK! Where I spent my time lazing around and not thinking about work.
But my current work commitments just doesn't permit me to have such opportunities nowadays. *SIGH* Maybe I'm doomed till the end of time...sad isn't it?
Kay beritahu ku yg dia baru jek pulang dari Negeri Sembilan tempoh hari bertemu keluarga dan ayahnya yg baru saja pulang ke tanahair selepas mengerjekan ibadah umrah. Sempat jugak dia singgah ke PD (Port Dickson) lepas tu.
Oooohh...bestnyer!! Jerlus lerr dgr orang gie holiday, aku lak terperok jek pat umah! ~ Huhu!
Pantai Port Dickson (Kiriman dari Kay)
Huiii...bestnyer nengok pukolan ombak pat tepi pantai tuu..Mcm memanggil jek jom gie Port Dickson...hehe (Kay, kalo i turun Port Dickson, bawak me gie sini lerr...huarrhh!!)
Kay bertarung nyawa dgn ombak, demi menghapuskan raksasa-raksasa di lautan...hehehe!
Haiz!..kalo nak diikutkan hati, skrg jugak aku nak gie belayar...tapi setakat belayar gie pulao bantal jek! eheheh...
Anyway, i don't tink I will be able to go somewhere ler buat sementara nie. Schedule kerja ku penuh sampai bulan Ramadhan. Nenek pula sakit di hospital. So, ralat pulak nak kemana-mana buat masa skrg.
Kepala otak ku bercelaru...perut rasa lapar lak nie..hmm..ahh! ader maggie ler kat dapur!
So, sebelom aku tertido bermimpikan maggie mee, lebih baik aku gie masak maggie 2 minit now!
Dan aku menutup tirai malam nie dgn video klip dari Nickelback. Gerekzz ahh lagu nie...so enjoysss!
If Everyone Cared
ps : Kay, thanks for sending me the song. I begin to like it very much...
Got this email from a fren. I like it. I like the cockroach joke best.
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Muthu Oh Muthu!
MUTHU & THE INTERVIEWER
Interviewer : What is your birth date? Muthu : 13th October Interviewer : Which year? Muthu : ... EVERY YEAR
MUTHU & HIS MANAGER
Manager asked to Muthu at an interview.... Can you spell a word that has more than 100 letters in it? Muthu replied: P-O-S-T-B-O- X
MUTHU & LONDON TRIP
After returning back from a foreign trip, Muthu asked his wife, Do I looklike a foreigner? Wife : No! Why? Muthu : In London, a lady asked me, "Are you a foreigner?".. that's why ... Wife : SHOCKED!
MUTHU & TOURIST
One tourist from U.S.A. asked to Muthu whether any great man born in this village or not .. and Muthu said .. "No sir, only babies were born here .."
MUTHU & HIS EXPERIMENT
Muthu was doing experiment with cockroach. First he cut it's one leg and told WALK. WALK. Cockroach walked. Then he cut it's second leg and told the same. Cockroach walked. Then cut the third leg and did the same. At last he cut it's fourth leg and ordered it walk! But cockroach didn't walk. Suddenly Muthu said loudly, "I found it. If we cut cockroach's four legs, it becomes deaf. Muthu become a saint!
MUTHU & DRIVER
When Muthu was travelling with his wife in a motorised tricycle, the driver adjusted mirror. Muthu shouted, "You are trying to see my wife ? Sit back. I will drive.
MUTHU GOES TO HOTEL
Muthu went in a hotel. To wash hands he went to the wash basin. There he started washing the basin. Seeing this, the manager asked what was he doing. Muthu pointed towards the board "WASH BASIN "
MUTHU & INTERVIEWER - FINAL PART
Interviewer : Just imagine your in 20th floor in a building, it caught fireand how will you escape ? Muthu : It's simple.. I will just stop my imagination .. :)
Oh .. i forgot . the funniest part ..On a political rally Muthu was arrested. Why ????????????Because, a woman journalist walking with a badge wrote "PRESS" on her right chest ... and he did it !
Aku dpt email dari seorang teman. Kisah lagenda rock, Amy Search, yg baru pulang dari mengerjakan umrah.
Lagenda Rock - Amy Search
Alhamdullilah, aku kagum ler dgn kekuasaan Tuhan. Kalo Dia nak mengubah nasib hamba-Nya, maka dgn sekelip mata saja ianya akan berubah...Kun fa ya kun (Jadi, maka jadi lah..)
Semoga aku juga akan kesana kelak. Itulah saat yg ku idamkan. Insya-Allah..
SINGGAH di kediaman baru penyanyi Amy Search di Villa Damansara, wangi setanggi menyemarak ke rongga hidung. Saat jarum jam sudahmenjengah ke angka 8.40 malam, alunan bacaan al-Quran beralun lembut dari sisi radio yang terhias cantik di ruang tamu menyambut tiba tetamu.
“Ini bukan bau setanggi, ini bau haruman Hajarul Aswad,’’ kataNorish seraya mempersilakan kami duduk di sofa.
Amy dan Norish bersama empat saudara yang lain baru pulang daripadamengerjakan umrah di Mekah. Kemudian Amy muncul dengan anak lelakinya Xander dan menceritakan pengalamannya di Mekah.
Selama dua minggu, Amy melakukan sesi umrah sebanyak enam kali, sementara isterinya sebanyak lapan kali.
Banyak pengalaman indah lagi berharga sepanjang empat hari di Madinah dan 10 hari di Mekah. Orang kata, rockers biasanya berjiwa keras dan kasar, tetapi itu bagi yang tidak mengenali siapa Amy secara luar dan dalamnya. Amy bukan hanya seorang rockers yang cemerlang, tetapi pancaran aura seorang ayah dan suami yang baik.
Dia bercakap dengan bahasa yang lemah lembut, hormati orang lain dan berbudi orangnya. Dalam pertemuan itu, Amy menyatakan kerinduan untuk ke Tanah Suci lagi jika diberi rezeki. Pemberian Tuhan kepada Amy mengerjakan umrah adalah anugerah yang tidak ternilai. Meskipun beberapa kali tertangguh, akhirnya dia kembali mengadukepada Yang Maha Kuasa untuk mendapatkan peluang mengerjakan umrah pada Jun ini.
“Memang mulanya sedih sangat bila dua kali tertangguh. Ada masalah visa, ada masalah masa yang membuatkan kami terbantut untuk pergi lebih awal.
“Saya memohon supaya Allah sampaikanlah hajat saya kali ini. Alhamdulillah akhirnya kami berangkat juga dan selamat kembali tiga hari lalu,” kata Amy.
Berkongsi pengalamannya, setelah 25 tahun melibatkan diri kepada dunia seni, di Tanah Suci menurut Amy, adalah ketenangan dan kedamaian yang sama sekali berbeza.
Dia sudah lama mengidamkan saat-saat ini. Tatkala berada di Mekah dan Madinah, hati tiba-tiba luluh. Dia ingat kepada Allah dan Rasulullah, perjuangan sahabat-sahabat dan kemurnian Islam.
“Saya dan isteri tidak berfikir lain selain dari ibadat, sebab bukan mudah untuk datang ke sana lagi,” tegas Amy.
Katanya, mereka datang dari jauh, berpisah dengan keluarga, anak-anak untuk menziarah dan beribadat di Tanah Suci.
Masjid Nabawi yang punya tarikan tersendiri, menjadikan masa lapang Amy tidak di bilik penginapan. Setiap solatnya di masjid yang dijanjikan pahala seribu kali berbanding masjid-masjid lain selain Masjidilharam itu.
Begitu juga ketika di Mekah. Amy berusaha sedaya mungkin berada disaf hadapan pada setiap kali solat, berdepan dengan Kaabah.
“Keindahan yang tidak boleh diceritakan kepada sesiapa sahaja. Selepas sembahyang, mengucup Hajarul Aswad, memang momen paling bahagia dalam kehidupan seorang manusia,’’ kata Amy lagi.
Doa di Raudah
Peluang beribadat di Raudah, yang terletak berhampiran dengan makam Rasulullah s.a.w. Amy sempat menitipkan doa indah. Yang dipinta sebaik pulang ke Malaysia hatinya kekal dengan kasih dan sayang,cinta yang sarat kepada kebaikan.
“Biarlah rasa cinta ini selama-lamanya. Doa saya supaya jangan tutup pintu hati kepada Allah. Jangan malas sembahyang, jangan malas buat kebaikan. Juga kepada anak-anak semoga punya masa depan yang indah,” katanya.
Rockers terkenal ini juga tidak dilupakan bagi menitipkan doakesejahteraan dan murah rezeki untuk seluruh peminat yang selamaini mengangkat dirinya ke tahap sekarang.
Sebagai penyanyi, Amy percaya apa yang dikecapi hari ini adalahdengan sokongan dan dorongan peminatnya.
“Entah mengapa ketika di sana, saya menjadi semakin sentimentalmengenangkan pengorbanan peminat-peminat selama ini,” ujarnya.Justeru selama di sana, dia tidak putus turut mendoakan semuapeminat di tanah air yang selama ini menjadi pendorong.
Biarlah mereka juga dibuka pintu rezeki untuk sama-sama ke Tanah Suci dan melakukan ibadat sebaik mungkin di sana suatu masa nanti.
Apa yang paling puas kepada Amy ialah melalui wang yang diterima hasil titik peluh menyanyi selama ini, dia diterima sebagai tetamu Allah di Tanah Suci.
Kata Amy, mungkin kerana dia rockers, ada yang menyangka dia tidakingat Tuhan. Sebab itu ada yang hairan bila mendapat tahu Amy mahuke Mekah.
“Saya sendiri pelik kenapa ada tanggapan sebegitu sedangkan kita sebagai manusia adalah sama saja,” tegas Amy.
Bagi Amy, persepsi bahawa orang seni mungkin tak ingat Tuhan adalah silap sebab apabila dia dipilih sebagai tetamu Allah, itu tuah dan rezekinya.
Menyesal tak bawa anak
Sepanjang berada di Tanah Suci, kedua- dua anak kecilnya, Xander dan Sonia dijaga oleh ibu mentua Amy. Meskipun begitu kata Norish, sesampai saja di sana, hatinya kesal kerana meninggalkan dua anak itu dan tidak membawa bersama-samanya.
Norish yang bertudung semenjak April lalu juga berhadapan dengan pelbagai pengalaman indah sepanjang di Tanah Suci.
“Melihat jemaah lain mengendong anak kecil ada yang lebih kecildaripada Sonia, saya menyesal tidak membawa mereka bersama. Lainkali kalau diizinkan lagi ke sana, insya-Allah kami akan membawa anak-anak bersama,’’ katanya.
Melihat pengalaman wanita dari negara lain yang membawa anak-anak masing-masing, Norish merasakan bukan sesuatu yang terlalu sukar untuk mereka menjaga anak sendiri sepanjang beribadat di Mekah.
Semoga Yayasan Isabella jadi realiti
Ada satu perkara yang belum menjengah menjadi realiti. Amy berhasrat semoga suatu hari nanti cita-cita untuk menubuhkan badan kebajikan atas nama Yayasan Isabella akan menjadi kenyataan.
“Itu akan menjadi komitmen saya kepada masyarakat. Kerana mereka mengangkat saya, mereka mengangkat Search sampai masanya untuk kami mengembalikan semula segala-galanya kepada mereka pula.
Kalo cakap pasal rock, lain takde, Search & Wings jer yg sentiasa teringat dlm kepala otak aku..
Saper tak kenal mereka tu? Bebudak yg lahir selepas kemunculan kumpulan tu pon akan tahu saper Search, saper Wings! Memang ler tu 2 group POWER!
Malahan lagu-lagu mereka sampai sekarang kerap diputarkan di stesen radio. Aku masih sampai skarang masih lagi dengar lagu2 mereka. Kalo kami gie jamming pon, lagu Search & Wings tak pernah kami lupakan..woohooo!
Rock never die..yeah!
Ok..time for afternoon nap.
Nanti aku sambung lagi...sambil tu dgr ler lagu Search nie..Bye!
As the saying goes, Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Define "beauty" : (n) The quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality.
But what really is the perception of a person’s beauty? No one can precisely described the true meaning. Beauty itself is subjective.
Pernah sekali aku memberitahu kepada Anida bahawa kecantikan sejati bukan terletak pada luaran zahirnya. Kecantikan yang sempurna itu datang dari dalam jiwa kita, rohani dan hati yang bersih.
Rita menelefon aku suatu hari. Pada mulanya perbualan kami agak santai. Setakat bertanyakan kemajuan kerjaya masing-masing dan tidak lebih dari itu.
“I ada rahsia nak katakan pada you. Can you keep a little secret?” kata-kata Rita yg menyinggah ke cuping telinga ku ini.
“Eh, sounds serious nie? Ermm..you trust me?” aku meminta kepastian jika dia benar ingin memberitahu ku rahsia itu.
“I recently met this guy..hmm..baru jer kenal. I nak mintak pandangan dari you, from a guy’s persepective.” jelas Rita.
Aku mendapat tahu Rita baru berkenalan dengan seorang jejaka dari ruangan online dating portal di internet. Pada mula nyer mereka setakat berkomunikasi melalui email dan SMS. Namun, hari demi hari, 'pertemuan' dialam maya itu menjadi rancak dan erat. Hingga suatu hari itu, si jejaka yg bernama Husin, mula menyatakan hasrat utk ketemu dengan kawan ku, Rita.
Rita agak berwaspada sikit pada mulanya. Tapi oleh kerana dengan keihklasan dan kejujuran Husin yang begitu bersungguh-sungguh, akhirnya pertemuan janji mereka di salah sebuah restoran Pizza Hut.
Gugup, gementar, cuak, cemas…mcm-mcm lah yg Rita rasa kan . Ketika asyik dilamun khayalan menantikan kehadiran Husin, tetiba muncul seorang jejaka berdiri segak dihadapan Rita. Secara jujur, mereka tidak pernah mengenali wajah masing-masing, tapi mungkin arus naluri mereka yg kuat, mereka seolah tahu siapa diantara mereka.
"So how was he? Handsome ke?" aku mencelah kaypoh.
“Oohhh…not bad looking. It’s beyong my expectation.” Rita dgn nada gediknya. “He’s tall, well-built and quite a good looking.” pujian Rita lagi.
“Infact, for the first 2 minutes, it was just silence between us. We just smiled at each other until he break the ice.” ujar Rita sambil membayangkan keadaan ketika perjumpaan itu.
Husin seorang pramugara SIA yg baru saja pulang dari Germany pada awal pagi itu. Oleh kerana keesokan harinya dia akan berlepas terbang ke New York pula, maka malam itu lah yg paling sesuai utk mereka bertemu.
“It was a good date. He’s well-mannered and I’m very comfortable with him. He’s very sincere and he laid his objectives well. So, that’s why I think this has to be the best dating game I’ve been so far.” Rita sambung perbualanya lebih lanjut.
Husin berterus terang tentang hasratnya utk mencari teman hidup yg sesuai untuk diri nya kelak. Dia ingin mencari seorang wanita muslimah untuk dijadikan sebagai isteri, yg teguh pada agama, kerana beliau percaya itulah tiang kebahagian rumahtangga.
Ya, aku akur. Untuk mencari isteri, bukan kerana rupa yang cantik, bukan kerana harta yang banyak, tetapi asas agamanya yang kukuh. Aku yakin, Rita mempunyai sifat2 wanita idaman yg dicari itu. Beliau bukan saja seorang yang bijak, tetapi amat menitik beratkan hal uhkrawi dan keimanan dlm kehidupannya.
Pertemuan malam itu begitu bermanfaat sekali dalam mengenali peribadi dan hati budi masing2.
“I hope that would not be the last time we met.” Rita ungkap keraguan hati kecilnya. “I think he's my best choice at the moment. Would really want to meet him again.”
“So, why not you set the next date. I think that would be fair, right?” jelas ku.
"He’s seldom here lah, that’s why. We SMS to keep in touch, but now he seldom reply to me. Kenapa ek? Maybe he's too busy? I tried to keep cool and not to be so pushy..but I really don’t want to loose him.” Rita mula menampakan keserasianya terhadap Husin, tidak seperti jejaka lain yang pernah diketemukan sebelum ini.
Aku mengerti perasaan wanita. Bah kan ianya satu perasaan semula jadi setiap manusia. Bibit-bibit kasih telah mula tampak menghiasi ruangan hatinya diketika itu.
“I’m not sure if it’s infatuation. I’m too old for that I think. I bukan budak remaja lagi.” jelas Rita. “Or maybe.... I’m not as attractive as he might has expected tak?”
“That would be another matter, if you both are not thinking maturely. WE are not talking about infatuation or puppy love or whatever for this instance," aku cuba mententeramkan gelora dihati Rita.
“You are just as perfect. Why be so self-inferior?” jelas aku lagi. “You have to be confident about yourself. You have to feel good about yourself. To be that way, you have to know deep beneath about yourself and be sincere about this relationship.”
“SIGH!” Rita mengeluh. “I don’t want to fail this relationship. If it fails again...I'll not commit to love anymore. Maybe, I’m not the type he’s looking for...I tak cantik.”
"Look Rita, you are just perfect yourself. Tiada cacat celanya. Why you worry about that?” Aku memujuk Rita yg mula merasa ragu tentang keyakinan pada dirinya.
Dulu, Anida juga pernah mengungkapkan tentang perkara ini kepada ku. Begitu juga bersama Cikgu Nadirah ketika kami 'berchatting online' dahulu. Adakah lelaki semua hanya melihat dasar kecantikan wanita itu dari segi paras rupa saja?
“So wat do you think, Zue? Am I beautiful?” Rita mencari kepastian dari ku.
Kecantikan itu tidak dapat di kayu ukur dengan paras rupa atau pon dilihat dari segi fizikal diri ini. Kerana, erti kecantikan seseorang itu jelas bebeza pada siapa yg melihatnya, bukan?
It’s a little naïve if you love someone just because of the gorgeous looks. The true beauty lies beneath oneself and its when the inner beauty shines, the true beauty of oneself shows.
Everyone is a beauty to the Creator. So you are beautiful too...
(Above is a true story...but Rita is not her name.)
Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip.
Pagi itu saya bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak mahu. Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya.
Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai pasarsaya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah belakang. Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung.
Dia menjerit, “Adoi!". Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya.
Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri. Feri itu terbelah dua. Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara.
Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting Highlands dan terus ke tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telahbertukar menjadi Ultraman itu. Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan kipas helikopter.
Pemandu lori itu menjerit "Adoi..!" dan jatuh ke bumi. Emak saya menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris. Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati.
Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi. Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi yang akan mati.
Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat sebelum saya mati.
(Karangan ini hasil nukilan murid darjah 4. Harap jangan ketawa.)
Biler aku terdengar lagu nie, teringat ler kenangan dolu semasa aku membesar dalam zaman rock. Kira sumer rock giler ler time tuu. Gie skolah pon mesti pakai rock...kira takde yg tak rock time tuu..
Teringat jugak time tu Awie dan Wings turun Yishun lepak pat umah kawan dia. Kol 4 pagi aku sanggup kayuh basikal nak tengok Awie...woohoo. Time tu dia superstar lerr...
Aku ketika zaman rock...Rock kappa?!!
Mulai hari tuu, tertanam ler impian ku utk menjadi seorang rocker yang termahsyur. Aku nak simpan rambut panjang, aku sanggup 'save' duit skola utk gie jamming 'training' main drum...Lengit jugak main drum lagu nie..hehehe..
Tapi, sumer itu telah ku tinggalkan menjadi kenangan lampau. Aku sedar yg ianya suatu realiti yg tak akan terjadi...
"...but i'm sure u'll look charming wif a goatie, n i'm not teasing u...i'm serious! =)..."
Terkejutzz biler aku dpt request mcm tuu..Tersenyum kambing kejap aku dibuat nyer. (Terkerok-kerok kepala). Senonoh ke muka aku nie ader goatie? Nampak mcm hero ke? Nampak lebih macho ke? huahahahaa...
Pernah dulu aku simpan goatie pat dagu nie. Tapi kejap jek. Aku nie jenis pemalas nak maintain. Maklum ler, sibukzz sangat. Simpan goatie nie nak kena rajin jaga. Nak kena trim, nak kena rajin bercukur pada tempat-tempat yg tak sepatut nyer tumbuh, supaya nampak kemas dan bergaya...isshh... kejer leceh tu.
Aku rasa muka nie tak sajak ler ader facial hair. Selekeh jek..mak aku pon pernah cakap dolu.
So, tuu sebab ler aku malas nak bela...
But oleh kerana nie spesel request, so aku tak nak lerr menghampakan mana-mana pihak. Tapi senonoh ke nanti jadi nyer...? hmm..?
Aku pejam mata dan cuba membayangkan....
Waduhhh..ganteng deh!!!
Tetiba jek aku tersentak dari lamunan. Teringat lagu nie
"..dimana dia, anak kambing saya...anak kambing saya yg makan daun pakau..(err..daun pakau ek? Dah lupa ler lagu nie..huhu)
As usual, I'm online on late nights to browse thru blogs.
Over the years, I've found some interesting blogs. Pertaining from politics, businesses, motivations, perspectives, life encounters and all kind of other wierd issues that you don't realised it exist!
In today's globalised world, it has no boundaries. Blogs bring the world to you. You meet all kind of people from different aspect of life and cultures. You are kept updated with the trends in this fast moving pace of life. Not forgetting the fictional ones...HAHA!! Truely, entertaining.
But what matter most, are what you READ and what you DIGEST.
I came to read this blog earlier. One of the BEST blogsite I've discovered so far. Very thought provoking sometimes, unless you are not into politics.
by Steph- @ Wednesday, 18. Jul, 2007 - 04:13:51 pm
Two Iranian citizens, Haleh Esfandiari and Kian Tajbakhsh, have admitted plotting to overthrow the democratically elected government of Iran, in part of an American funded "soft revolution".
Haleh Esfandiar said that she intended to overthrow the government, "In the name of dialogue, of empowering women and in the name of democracy."
Which is pretty odd, as she also says she wants to divide the people from their government - doesn't sound to democratic - and she is a paid employer of the US Gov.
The MSM are trying to pretend that's she's just an academic and underplay the fact that she works for the 'Woodrow Wilson International Center for Scholars'.
The 'Woodrow Wilson International Center for Scholars' isn't just named after a White Supremacist and set up by an Act of Congress to promote American imperialism, it's also part of the American government. The American President appoints its president and director. The current President is none other than, Lee Hamilton - 9/11 Commission, Baker-Hamilton report, sits on the president's Homeland Security Advisory Council, and serves as a "advisor" to the CIA and the United States Army.
They also both work for the Soros foundation, which basically plots to overthrow indigenous governments and promote Western imperialism. Tajbakhsh said since the end of the Cold War, "the role of the Soros foundation might have been targeting the world of Islam." The US State Dept. issued the following very curious statement.
"We call upon Supreme Leader Ali Hosseini Khamenei to treat these people with the respect they deserve, to put an end to any further broadcasts, and to release all Americans currently being held on groundless charges."
On groundless charges?!!
Wait a minute, if they're not spying for the American government - how would America know what they were up to?
Also, Iran doesn't recognise dual citizenship, they never renounced their Iranian citizenship, they flew into Iran on Iranian passports. So calling them Americans is probably not a very a good idea, if you want to claim that they're innocent.
And I can reveal here, on Steph's blog, their is documentary evidence that proves the US Gov is conspiring to overthrow the Iranian government - Iran Democracy Act.
Rather strangely titled Act, seeing as the Act gives the authority to the US Gov to break international law and try and overthrow the indigenous, democratically elected Iranian government. Actually, Iran is the only democracy in the Middle East and has been since the overthrow of the American backed Shah. So what America means is that it wants to reimpose a brutal pro Western, pro Zionist dictatorship in Iran.
Their activities would be considered treason in America or Britain.
I read ur emails, blog comments, text messages, MSNs, skypes asking me how am I doing..why I've been so quite nowadays. Actually, I'm very much alive now, except for the last few weeks, thou. It's nice to hear from you guys again, I really do miss you guys a lot! Muaacks!
Quote:
Ida's email: Zu, U just silent............no words..............why?
Syasya's email: hai wak...i pun windu dgn u jgk....actually i dah masuk campus around 2week coz jd fasi 4 intake bru...lotih tuk nk ajar ank org rupanye,..u mest bz wit ur projectkan...windu gle kat u la...uwa teman bicaara dah bz aja...end of this yr i kene practical training la...takutnye n way take care ek...
To Kay pat KL : I was at skype but you were not there. Mana you pegi? I dah sihat and kaki you dah ok tak?? Left some messages for you...check out your skype, k. :)
To greg : Thanks for your sms...we go lunch next week, ok.
To nana : Hi, I'm good here! Sorry ler, tak sempat balas your emails. Sibukzz ler tuu hari.
To Elisha & Ivelina : Thks for ur emails. I've replied ok, rite? How's Greece?
... and to all my international blog friends, thks for the private messages. I know I've not been blogging often enuff. Too many blogsites to update..LOL! But, I've been reading your blogs, alrite.
Haiz, sometimes I have to re-think about my time mangement. It's getting too cramp out here.
I've just ended my chatting session with Nisha earlier. Ooo wow! She's on vacation eh? What?..Now at Conrad Hotel?..Having a splendid view?..Now she's telling me she wanted a honeymoon??...LOL!!!
She must be enjoying life out there!! (Jerlus nyer aku weiiii!!)
Oh..she told me to tell the world bout her. Can...why not?
Heeheheee...told Nisha bout dinner cruise I went on Friday. She very the jerlus seyy. Pestering me to bring her along next time. Hmm...well, only if there's another invitation for me, maybe can lorr.
This is Nisha...cute tak, cute tak? (I'm sorry, Nisha - I grabbed your photo from ur msn. I'm sure u gonna kill me this time! wahahaha)
She wanted me to give a little testi about herself. hmm...ok will do.
Quote from our MSN chat :-
nisha : write bout me la me : oh..hmm..ok.. nisha : tell the whole world tt i'm cute me : hmm..oh..ok..you very cute! lagik? nisha : n i wanna go to dinner cruise! =D me : ahahahaa....tu nanti nisha : n jalan ampas! me : ahahaha....to pon nanti nisha : n......... me : and aper ? nisha : i like teh sarbat at kedai bhai at bussorah street! me : oh well ok..that's fine nisha : n wat else.... nisha : n i wanna be a consultant! nisha : juz like u!~
Ahhahah....cute ryte?!.
Honestly, she's a very nice gal to chat with. She's an IT student from Republic Polytechnic and graduating soon. Got her driving licence at age 19 (she just turned 20) Wow, i really envy that! (But I got fetish on ladybikers! I dunno why??) Got to know her from her blog.
Yep, I was blog hopping one day, and came across her blog. Scrutinized her blog posts and they are pretty interesting. The way she expressed herself in words abt her daily life encounters. Very creatively articulated. ehmm...and very nakal olso. Like to tease me, ek. And thanks for asking all 'those' questions...hehehe. I will try very hard not to expose the answers at this moment.
(Ahh...maybe I'll blog abt the FAQs about me. So the next time, I'll just refer them to that site.)
Really nice knowing you, Nisha. So, study well and finish up your FYP (whatever that means)
Cukup tak? Nak I elaborate you lagi...hehehe. Please stop teasing me before i nangis *winks*
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Infact, ppl I met on the net are truely nice. Maybe, its becos I'm nice to them or...they are simply good nice ppl. Who says there aren't nice ppl out there. I read on papers, I watched the media, condeming the internet chatters, too many negative accounts given, bringing this interactive tool into a negative level.
But it all boils down to each individual (you, net chatters). Your etiquette while chatting. Remember where are your boundaries, be sensitive and don't give any of your personal info to strangers (esp you girls out there)
Undesirable incidents have happened and are happening. But who are we really to blame? The vcitims or the prepetrators? I say, BOTH are at equal fault!
It's truely pity when we only see one side of the story. How about the alternatives? Are we being too judgemental that we overlook the whole scenario?
Oh..ok. I stop it here and let you guys ponder. There's always another side to a story...and maybe you can tell me your views. Let's start a healthy argument here.
WARNING : I'M NOT INTO SEX CHAT, PLEASE!! THAT JUST TURNS ME OFF!
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I'll see if I can get some updates done tomorrow about my dinner cruise. Maybe can post some pix lah. Its late and I need my sleep. (Yawwnzzz)
Goodnites to my peeps and to you nice ppl reading this!
ps: Received your goodnite text, Nisha. Told you, tu bukan bangla nyer nombor kan. Selamat Malam, Nisha. :)
Client : Hi, zue? Dave here. Today's appointment cancelled. Got something urgent to rush."
Me : Oh, that's ok. Maybe some other time then?
Client : Let's hold till Monday. Let me get the prints ready for you first. It's easier to discuss then.
Me : Sure, Dave. Don't rush. Get all the info ready and text me, k.
Client : Ok, boss. Catch up with you soon.
Me : Have a good day, Dave.
Client : You too, zue. Bye.
Hangs up.
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I'm all free out of sudden. So, what shall I do now? Catch a movie? hmm...'Transformer' would b good? Nahhh...I'll save for next time. *thinking*
Ahh, go Orchard lah. Long time never go there, since my last IMF duty. So, there I went....
Wheeee....driving thru Orchard Road.
To Taka I went. Parked at Basement 3 and went to Best Denki Level 6..or 5..err..can't remember lerr. Looking at some LCD TV. Hmm...maybe time to gt a new one and put inside my toilet..HAHA.!
Looking at some shoes...men's wear, sports section..and oh! need to get some socks. Stokin ku dah koyak...
Got these for a good bargain. 3 pcs white tees + 3 pcs socks + s/s shirt = $50 (mahal tak?). I don't go shopping often lerr. I shop only for things I really need.
It's abt 4.15pm. Rushed out from Taka. Orchard Road was busy. Took a stroll down to Centrepoint. Beginning to miss this place I once knew. It's like a walk down to memory lane..huhu!
Now at the traffic jucntion waiting for the 'Green Man'. Me people watching again..Here's the Apek Ice-Cream man with their famous 'Ice-Cream sandwich' which only cost $1.
Walked past Crown Prince Hotel and saw Swensen. Hey, I did this Swensens, you know. So, next time when you see this restaurant, you already know who did it, ok. hmm...still looks good after so many years, eh.
Here I was at Centrepoint but didn't really recce the mall. Was packed with souls...So, decided to make a U-turn. Stopped for a while to feed my ears with music by the blind busker. Oitt! He played good music with his guitar, alrite. So, stayed there for a while listening...He maybe blind, but his talent isn't blind at all...You rock, brader!
While walking back towards Taka to pick up my car, amd saw this building! Ahhh...A place where once I frequent to. A place where I acquired my first computer knowledge many years ago..A place where I met many friends...A place that still stands and will always be close to my heart. The good ol' Orchard Building.
It was 5.30pm, zoomed out from Taka Basement. I tot i could beat the congestion, but was a minute too late. So, where should I go to avoid the evening peak hour ah?? Detour to Bugis then...to have my Teh Tarik! Ahahaha!!!!
So, that's my hard day @ work. Gosh...I'm so tired by now. Need to get some rest tonite, because tomorrow..... IT'S Viva La Vivo ...yeeehoo!!!
Phew! After the agonies I had to go thru...it's finally over!
And this is what my horoscope said today...
July 02, 2007 Thank goodness for people like you. You always have something up your sleeve, even when it comes to a situation that seems like a dead end. Once this is over, pat yourself on the back -- repeatedly.
I have to admit this project was painstaking. Even at that very last minute, changes kept cropping up! I was under constant pressure before lunch time. The client kept calling, the authority was not being co-operative, the builder was too slow coallating the documents, idiots calling my phone asking stoopid questions which i lead them to unreasonable answers...hahaha! (serve them right!)
I was not myself for a moment. My God! Time was ticking away. I have to send out these before noon and I can't wait any longer. I have to break the rules this time and prepared to take risk. Infact, I'm a risk taker after all...and so I did.
Used my 'secret weapon' - Anticipate the move, aim and strike it hard! Yups! That's my trade secret.
Finally, the project is completed. The building is officially opened. The landlord can start their business immediately, and my client standing in awed!
"How did you do that?" and I said "If only you would listen to me the other time, and we wouldn't be in this mess. I have to do this just to save you!"
It's all in a day's work. So, while you are reading this, I'm still patting my back! HAHA!
Good boy, Zue..Goood boy! - Woof! Woof!
One project's over...and many more to come. Ok, need to send them my bills now....
My body immune system is down. I'm sick today, I'm having a cold, flu, fever, cough, my body aches..it's all due to stress. Work stress.
My weekend's lousy and awful...and tomorrow is gonna be another disasterous day. I can feel it twiching inside me..Arrgghhh!
At least I found something to entertain myself. I watched Sherk 3 DVD just now.!!! I've never watched Shrek movies before...
It was rather fun and entertaining. Brilliant animations, superb soundtracks...any hey, I loike it! At least, Shrek makes me smile today...hahaha... Great movie!
Looking at some shoes...men's wear, sports section..and oh! need to get some socks. Stokin ku dah koyak...
Got these for a good bargain. 3 pcs white tees + 3 pcs socks + s/s shirt = $50 (mahal tak?). I don't go shopping often lerr. I shop only for things I really need.
It's abt 4.15pm. Rushed out from Taka. Orchard Road was busy. Took a stroll down to Centrepoint. Beginning to miss this place I once knew. It's like a walk down to memory lane..huhu!
Now at the traffic jucntion waiting for the 'Green Man'. Me people watching again..Here's the Apek Ice-Cream man with their famous 'Ice-Cream sandwich' which only cost $1. 
Walked past Crown Prince Hotel and saw Swensen. Hey, I did this Swensens, you know. So, next time when you see this restaurant, you already know who did it, ok. hmm...still looks good after so many years, eh.
Here I was at Centrepoint but didn't really recce the mall. Was packed with souls...So, decided to make a U-turn. Stopped for a while to feed my ears with music by the blind busker. Oitt! He played good music with his guitar, alrite. So, stayed there for a while listening...He maybe blind, but his talent isn't blind at all...You rock, brader!
While walking back towards Taka to pick up my car, amd saw this building! Ahhh...A place where once I frequent to. A place where I acquired my first computer knowledge many years ago..A place where I met many friends...A place that still stands and will always be close to my heart. The good ol' Orchard Building. 
It was 5.30pm, zoomed out from Taka Basement. I tot i could beat the congestion, but was a minute too late. So, where should I go to avoid the evening peak hour ah?? Detour to Bugis then...to have my Teh Tarik! Ahahaha!!!!
